payback

i've finally had enough

2007-04-12T19:54:00.000+08:00

i've finally had enough

such an emokid

2007-04-02T21:24:00.000+08:00

such an emokid

man it feels like a ton of bricks.
how surreal it feels.
just last year i told myself i would take charge of things.
it just gets better doesn't it?
i'm all to blame for letting things slide this far.
why am i such a wimp?
what's so hard about giving my best?
why do i act like such a hypocrite?
if i don't give a fuck,
who will?

wow.
so wad do i do about it?
nothing?
im just rotting in front of the com with songs blaring.
such an emokid,
such a loser.

enough.

a new life begins,
it starts NOW.

its time

2007-02-26T21:38:00.000+08:00

its time to get serious

it really is.
im honestly very worried about my studies,
and my life as a whole.
truth be told,
i really dunno what the hell im doing.
once i take out my tutorials to do,
its like an instant sleeping pill.
i suddenly feel damn sleepy and tired.
its 2 days to march,
and i find myself at a loss.
god save my soul,
cos im trying.

cny

2007-02-19T13:34:00.000+08:00

cny

im having fun popping new year goodies at home,
lozenges,redoxon,antibiotics,fedac,cetirizine all taste quite good.
well because of my annual cny throat infection (since p3),
im basically sleeping and checking out cool youtube vids lol.
nvm,
i still get my angbaos at any rate.

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.
.
.
.
.
.
.

sigh,
i really hate wasting my life away.
bio test and cts are here to spoil my cny AGAIN.
damn i hate feeling helpless.
fuck it.

18

2007-01-28T21:42:00.000+08:00

18

lol i can finally drink and drive
(but not both at the same time).
knn one step closer to As and NS.
nvm enjoy myself while i can.

2007

2007-01-01T19:51:00.000+08:00

2007

it may sound cliche,
but time really flies.
2006 was filled with ups and downs,
but this year was more of a rollercoaster than yesteryears.
quite a few lessons gleamed from the school of hard knocks.
and i started wondering more about my future,
like career wise and how its gonna be like when im out of sch.
i will rmb 2006 as the year i finally bulked up (lol),
the year of Italy's triump at Germany '06 (+ NBA Finals),
and how i fked up my commons because of that.
i will rmb 2006.

as for the coming year,
its gonna be somewhat of a academic routine.
day by day,
we'll be working towards the A levels.
wad i wish for 2007,
would be to have the discipline to do the things i should be doing,
and not just the things i like to do.
anyway here's a checklist for posterity's sake:

1. Work dilligently and consistently for As
- Do tutorials (I'll try)
- Buck up for econs
- Do 1000 year series! ( no la a 10 year one would suffice)

2. Workout consistently in the meantime
- Do weights 3 times a week
- Run once a week

3. Manage my time
- Spend less time on the Comp and TV
- Keep a task log

4. Be nice to my friends
- that means i've gotta stop being a prick haha.

alright that's about it.
have a great year ahead everyone.

* edit *

im in a sibei bad mood now.
a badly twisted shoulder and a lack of sleep contributed to that.
wad a way to start the new sch year.
i think that some people have no eq,
they have no idea wads called privacy and personal space.
and that really pisses me off.
i guess i should learn to keep my anger in check,
because sometimes i really feel angry enough to kill.
then i'll end up punching walls till my knuckles bleed.
definitely not the best way to deal with anger.

sian ji pua

2006-12-05T20:40:00.000+08:00

sian ji pua

the hols have been damn boring,
shift hse slack around eat go gym read books,
then before i know it its december already.
damn i should stop procrastinating and have fun.
its gonna be a hellish year in 2007.
i need to get some new books as well,
i've been wanting to read eragon,
before i catch the movie.
and omfg the author is only 16 years old,
while im struggling to get a B for GP -.-"

**on a sidenote**
i just measured my pulse using some device,
and WTF my HR was 90 per min O_O.
amg i really need some cardio.
maybe shadow boxing o_O

broke

2006-11-23T21:57:00.000+08:00

im broke

and i need a job.
anyone got lobang?

nubbed

2006-11-08T19:23:00.000+08:00

nubbed

i stood in the queue at vivo for 1 and a half hrs waiting for a cab.
got ksed by lotsa people who shamelessly flagged down the cab,
and jumped queue by doing so.
or those who decided to dial a cab and save the trouble.
on another note,
cip at vivo was crap.
its crappiness can only be superceded by that of DoA,
which i declare as the most plotless movie since streetfighter.
oh and btw,
carl's jr has no quality control at all.

we'll carry on

2006-11-03T16:51:00.000+08:00

we'll carry on

we'll carry on.
u gotta dig 'welcome to the black parade' by MCR.
that being said,
i wouldn't want to waste my hols away again like last year.
time to start working out,
and get a bit of studying in.
discipline and consistency all over again.

deathnote

2006-10-23T23:15:00.000+08:00

i wish,

i had a deathnote.

inertia

2006-10-14T23:07:00.000+08:00

inertia

newton's third law seems too difficult to overcome lately.
can't really seem to get much done.
the haze is not helping either.
let's hope things get better.

slow to judge

2006-09-16T16:04:00.000+08:00

slow

slow to anger,
slow to judge.
let's not point fingers,
nor shift the blame.
we'll know when the dust settles.

on hindsight this could have been avoided.
fyi, i didn't say i wouldn't.
it was because i couldn't do it.
its not that i dun give a fk,
but u asked me too late.
just a communication breakdown,
nothing personal about it.
its not as if paper and ink is worth its weight in gold.
and i have not turned down anyone who asked me to print when i had the means to.

i asked repeatedly whether there's any need for me to do anything else,
but no one said anything.
im supposed to accept the reason that you think i won't do it anyway,
so don't bother asking me to do it?
in your long rant,
only a fraction of it was relevant.
if you were unhappy you had many opportunities to do so b4hand,
and not choose to explode at something that i had no control over.

there's no need to blame me for everything you're going through.
if anything, i have to watch my mouth,
and you have to make ur intentions clear earlier.
in any case,
i dun blame anyone for the things that happen around me,
and neither should u.
so just leave it at that.
wait till the dust has settled,
and our minds have cleared.

cmi

2006-08-31T22:30:00.000+08:00

cmi

it dawned upon me,
that im fked for promos.
i dun understand no shit for econs or bio.
not that my chem or math is doing very well.
in singapore if ur studies suck,
then u are deemed as a failure.
(unless ur sports/arts damn gosu)
if u get retained,
people WILL look down at you.
i can't really say its my fault for my academics turning out this way,
nor can i blame my ri teachers.
maybe i'm just not motivated enough to survive in a jc like rj.
i really have to mug my balls off and slave like a dog,
at least until my promos are done and dusted.
everyday mug from 10 to 10,
then in between jiapeng and do some exercise.
won't really use the com unless its for pw.
hopefully this is it,
and not all talk and no action like it has always been.
cb my fking future is at stake here.
surely its worth giving up my freedom for one month.
that's all folks.
i really HAVE TO pull through this.
time to knock that into my brain.
the clock is ticking .......

wake up

2006-08-23T20:11:00.000+08:00

wake up

its time.
no more excuses.
i've gotta get going.
i hope.
i wish.
i WILL.

don't look back in anger

2006-08-08T22:08:00.000+08:00

don't look back in anger,

i heard you say.

i won't.

wall

2006-07-27T22:28:00.000+08:00

wall

i've got to find another outlet.
i just smashed my fist against the wall again.
i guess i never learn.
why are some parents like that?
i guess i'll never know either.
WOW they can compare me with their friend's children,
but i cannot compare myself with people who are worse off?
fk off seriously.
i don't negotiate with terrorists.

owned

2006-07-22T22:24:00.000+08:00

owned

i got owned.
all thanks to some cb named ______ .
time to get my life on track.
bye.

maturity

2006-07-11T22:29:00.000+08:00

maturity

i saw this on adrian's blog,
and i found it rather relevant.
some deep shit eh?
okay snap out of it.
i guess its time for me to grow up.

"Maturity is the ability to control anger and settle differences without violence or destruction. Maturity is patience. It is the willingness to pass up immediate pleasure in favor of the long-term gain. Maturity is perseverance, the ability to sweat out a project or a situation in spite of heavy opposition and discouraging set-backs. Maturity is the capacity to face unpleasantness and frustration, discomfort and defeat, without complaint or collapse. Maturity is humility. It is being big enough to say, "I was wrong." And, when right, the mature person need not experience the satisfaction of saying, "I told you so."

Maturity is the ability to make a decision and stand by it. The immature spend their lives exploring endless possibilities; then they do nothing.

Maturity means dependability, keeping one's word, coming through in a crisis. The immature are masters of the alibi. They are the confused and the disorganized. Their lives are a maze of broken promises, former friends, unfinished business, and good intentions that somehow never materialize.

Maturity is the art of living in peace with that which we cannot change, the courage to change that which should be changed -- and the wisdom to know the difference."

B2B

2006-06-30T22:26:00.000+08:00

B2B: Back to Basics

looks like its back to the drawing board.
my cts are over,
but i ain't exactly rejoicing.
to say i got owned isn't an understatement.
this is wad happens when u have no clue,
and only act due to last minute panicking.
i really got to relook my life.
be it studies, ccas or just going to the gym.
i have to start taking my own intiative,
and make learning a lifelong habit
(or at least during my academic life).
indeed, i should be consistent in wdv i do.
i get really stressed during cts,
and as a result my health suffers,
while the test scores did not reflect any of that last minute efforts.
so i shall finally start paying attention in lectures and tutorials?
and actually DO MY OWN TUTORIALS.

life's a juggling act,
you have to pay attention to all aspects to ensure proper balance.

but it appears like im losing the plot.
so its back to basics once again.

counting down

2006-06-27T12:42:00.000+08:00

counting down

im counting the days that i DIE.
im gonna get owned real bad if i flunk all my subs,
which seems a very REAL possibility,
considering that i died for econs and confirm fail chem.
so i have maths and bio left to prevent a clean sweep,
or should i say a rather distasteful grandslam.
since i haven't started on bio,
and all i've done for maths is integration,
i can safely say im screwed.
in any case,
i'll be better off watching the world cup.
and so i shall,
since its much easier watching other people getting owned instead of myself for once.

ARGENTINA

2006-06-17T23:24:00.000+08:00

ARGENTINA

argentina ftw.
final score read ARGENTINA 6 SAM (Serbia & Montenegro) 0.
SAM got owned so badly,
that their coach announced he would resign after their nxt match.
and SAM isn't some noob team.
it qualified in the same group as spain,
and only conceded one goal in 10 qualifying matches.
too bad they conceded 7 in their next 2.
well,
like they used to say when Maradona was around,
'The Pope is German, but God is Argentine'.
right now every other game just pales in comparison.
that's just Einstein's Relativity taking place.
and i have to say,
messi is godmode.
came on for the last 15 min,
immediately Argentina scored 3 goals.
he had one assisst and one goal,
with a trademark burst of acceleration.
and to think he's injured -.-"
he totally pwns theo walcott and wayne rooney IMO.

fail

2006-06-08T23:02:00.000+08:00

fail

i think im gonna flunk my cts.
but so wad?
its a little too late for anything now.
i'll just cut my losses and chiong chem,
since i dun understand no shit about integration.

stop it

2006-06-05T12:28:00.000+08:00

stop it

that's enough already.
this is as far as it will go.
no more.

FYB

2006-06-03T10:40:00.000+08:00

FYB

yes YOU.
im talking about YOU bitch.
can't you just stay out of my life?
and leave me alone?
i've had enough of you,
and stop pretending.
of course ii know about it.
i knew it all along,
but i decided to respect myself and not descend to your level.
but you still dun get it do you?
perhaps you never will.
i wish i nvr knew you,
but i guess its too late for that now.
i'll have my life,
and you'll have to live out your pathetic existence.
let's stop pretending that we don't know what's going on.
all i can say is FOAD bitch.
thanks for being a pain in the ass,
you made me realise that there are bitches like you in this world.
thanks for letting me know what's FAKE,
all your pretences proved to be valuable learning experiences.
i'll never be the same again.

never.

Aim

2006-05-25T21:55:00.000+08:00

Aim

"The greater danger for most of us is not that our aim is too high and we miss it, but that it is too low and we reach it." - Michelangelo

well,
maybe its time to start planning for the hols.
on top of the list would be preparing for cts.
note that i didn't use the word mugging,
which would imply many mindless hrs buried in lecture notes.
i was contemplating,
planning a timetable hasn't really worked in the past 17 yrs,
so i've decided not to waste my time drawing up one.
instead of planning every moment of my 4 weeks,
i decided to just increase the opportunity for me to study.
like get files for all my subs,
and organise my lecture notes and tutorials.
put everything someplace where i'll see them,
and hopefully feel guilty/inspired enough to start on it.

aside from prepping for cts,
there are a few other things that i've got to get done in the hols.
one of which would be heading back for swim training.
not really sure how i feel about that,
im still waiting for the event programme to be out,
so i can check out the competition.
my interest in swimming has definitely waned over the years,
hardly surprising if you've been swimming since pri sch.
but i'll give it my best during the hols,
since its probably one of the last times that i'll be competing.

apart from both swimming and studying during the hols,
i'll try to accomplish a few physical goals,
just for myself i guess.
one of which would be to be able to do a handstand easily,
walk on my hands,
and other breakdancing variations,
possibly handstand pushups too.
it would also be great if i can finally do a one arm chinup,
something which shenglin has beaten me to haha.
30 pullups by the end of the hols dun seem too hard either.
maybe lose those fat on my obliques and lower abs too.
that can be done with some cardio,
but i think handstands, gymming and swimming would suffice.

on a final note,
i resolve to sleep b4 11 every night,
and not waking up any later than 10.
the hols is meant for rest and rejuvenation,
so i might as well get some much needed rest.

breakdancing

2006-05-20T19:51:00.000+08:00

breakdancing

went breaking workshop ytd,
and learnt how to do a handstand against a wall.
died on my first attempt,
but did alright on my 2nd.
also learnt 6 step and other basic moves.
still can't do turtle and side freeze cos too stiff.
i shall start stretching everyday,
cos breaking is not all about strength.
flexibility is more important,
something which i lack.
i fell quite sick after that,
and came home feeling bleagh.
lower spine hurting a bit too,
guess my body is just not used to it.
shall chiong handstand and 6 step for now.
same time get ready to return to swimming training.
meanwhile still gymming,
after i recover i.e.

keep it going

2006-05-12T15:41:00.000+08:00

keep it going

"Absence is erosive. In fact, your presence in the gym can be restoring, even bring you out of depression, solve a problem, squash stress or inspire you to have the best workout of your life. Try it! Just go to the gym when all roads lead elsewhere, maybe nowhere." - Dave Draper

dave draper puts it very succinctly there,
and that has held true for me the past couple of months.
gotta keep going.
my events for sch nats have been confirmed,
100 free and 1500 free.
quite a screwed up combo,
since one's a sprint and the other one is pure endurance.
well that just means that i've got to head back for swim training,
while at the same time keeping up with my gym sessions.
im probably joining canoeing as well,
and their trainings are really tough,
much tougher than i envisioned them to be,
but not THAT tough either.
i'll try to keep at all 3,
while at the same time taking some time to study.
cts are coming up after the hols,
hopefully going to the library will be as much of a habit as going to the gym has been.
the results (academic) will probably be more impressive.
enough talk.
its time to get going.

Labour Day

2006-05-01T22:53:00.000+08:00

Labour Day

indeed.
many people were labouring at bishan gym this morning.
MANY.
so many machine and equipment hoggers today,
made my routine stretch twice as long as i would have liked.
but hey,
mitch and i made a new pal,
that guy totally pwned our asses upside down.
damn,
we sure have a long way to go.
then came home after lunch,
slacked/stoned around watching cable,
and finally started some studying at 8.
within 20 min i understood the whole chapter 4A,
which took the lecturer 'EFFECTIVELY' a few weeks to cover.
oh wait,
or was it the schizo one?
ok wdv,
bio spa tmr.
read thru a bit,
but not really sure wad to expect.
its probably gonna be tougher than chem spa for sure.
all the best to me then.

OMFG

2006-04-22T20:09:00.000+08:00

OMFG

under *arhem* conducive *arhem* environments ytd,
2.4 was a breeze even though i still got a B lol.
and under some *arhem* unique *arhem* circumstances,
everyone was studying econs during an important chem tutorial.
but as it turned out,
we still died.
then after sch had class lunch at macs,
zzz too much fast food the past 2 weeks,
no wonder cannot do pullups le.
today i started on my 'no fries for the rest of the month' diet.
and the shaker fries was like pure salt on oil,
im definitely not eating macs for a while.
ok time to do PI now.
then mug for chem SPA.

hyped

2006-04-19T21:46:00.000+08:00

hyped

been feeling mostly demoralised.
after checking out world records for consecutive pullups (370) >.<
consecutive pushups (10,507) WTF!?
consecutive situps in an hour (9,568) -.-"
yeah and shenglin's monster 25 pullups during napfa.
chiam came close with 24.
went gym today,
felt good for the first time in a long time.
managed to break pbs for my 6 rep and 3 rep max.
been gaining weight progressively (muscle la duh),
but my pullups dying.
today only managed to do 20.
i was 9kg lighter when i did 22 for napfa last yr lolx.
hmm econs lecture test tmr,
even though i passed my first test of the year (econs test 10/20),
things aren't looking bright.
chem spa nxt wk along with bio mock spa,
well its time to brush up on my pract skills.
that's all for now.

sunday

2006-04-16T17:51:00.000+08:00

sunday

my stomach's definitely not feeling good,
after the kfc family meal along with a 20 inch hawaiian.
even after i tried to wash it down with the galloon of water i guzzled.
turns out i merely overworked my kidneys.
i shouldn't do this too often,
its bad for my stomach,
makes me feel bad,
then i'll try to wash it down and drink a hecklot of H2O.
its seriously bad for health,
and even worse,
it makes me fat.
i know i went to gain weight,
but this surely ain't the way to do it.
fast food makes u slower, not faster.
what irony.
now im feeling super weak and tired now.
so much for morgan spurlock's monthlong Macs challenge,
i bet he wouldn't have lasted more than a week if he ate KFC instead.
and fuck i have napfa tmr,
after too heavy cannot do pullups how?
but im more worried about chem mock spa.
i really should be,
considering that i've already failed my entire combi.
im uncertain of my promos now.

tired

2006-04-10T21:50:00.000+08:00

tired

stayed up late to watch AVM,
and arsenal lost.
wad a waste of precious sleeping time.
woke up at 9,
went j8 to eat and waited eons for mitchell.
gymmed at bishan much later.
ate lunch at j8 again,
then went marina square to bowl with ys and mitchell.
had an insanely tyco strike.
but felt majorly tired on the way home.
damn i need my sleep.
and you know wad?
its not over yet.

sometimes

2006-04-08T19:32:00.000+08:00

sometimes

sometimes i wish i didn't know.
sometimes i hope it never happened.
sometimes i feel like i need a break.
enough.
i hate going through this shit because of you.

sian diao

2006-04-07T22:09:00.000+08:00

sian diao

first up,
the bloody canteen was closed.
so i was basically starving most of the day.
gp was a bloody waste of time and i got pissed over nth.
the class went to j8 to eat,
and lol kuanrui's presents.
too graphic to describe,
but yeah it was hilarious and entertaining.
and i must say it really is a deserving present for a deserving person.
after that was the shit part.
walked back to sch to retrieve my bag,
went home b4 going ICA and report my loss of IC.
WTF MAN 3 BLOODY HOURS SPENT QUEUEING UP,
AND HAVE TO GO THROUGH WAD @#$! INTERVIEW ON HOW I LOST IT.
LAST BUT NOT LEAST,
100 BUCKS FOR FIRST LOSS OF IC.

_l_ FOAD THIEF _l_

I Still

2006-04-05T20:01:00.000+08:00

I Still Backstreet Boys

Who are you now
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow
What do you do
At this very moment
When I think of you
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that

No matter how I fight it, can't deny it
Just can't let you go

Chorus:
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Now look at me
Instead of moving on
I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
Yeah, I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)

I've tried to fight it, can't deny it
You don't even know that

Chorus:
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

No, no

Bridge:
I wish I could find you
Just like you found me, then I
Would never let you go

(Need you, care about you)
Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right here beside you)

But still no word from you

zzz

2006-04-04T18:39:00.000+08:00

zzz

life is too suck and boring.
im waiting for this phase to end.
till then,
i stone.

anyway some hilarious msn nicks that i came across today:

'good girls go to heaven.. bad girls come to wei wen'

and the best one i've seen so far,

'so you think you can pcc? say hello to my 15 pound friend'

haha if u dun get the 2nd one its alright.
only galvin bay got it the first time he read it.

ps. FOAD asshole who stole my wallet,
now i have to fucking go and replace my IC, EZ-link and POSB card.

FUCK LIFE

2006-04-01T23:28:00.000+08:00

FUCK THIS LIFE

FUCK IT.
JUST FUCK IT.
no matter wad the fuck i do,
i just feel fucking numb.
there's no fucking feeling anymore.
why do i fucking bother?
why do i try so fucking hard?
why should i even give a fuck?
WAD THE FUCK IS THE BLOODY POINT?
I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WAD IM DOING NOW.
AND WHY THE FUCK AM I HERE?
i should be mugging fucking bio,
but not that it fucking matters.

FUCK

2006-03-30T18:59:00.000+08:00

FUCK

today is such a fucked up day.
day lasted so fucking long.
we had lunch at 12,
which gave me a fucking gastric.
then GP and maths tutorials in which my brain rotted away.
after that ate and stoned for an entire hour in the canteen.
b4 finally moving my ass to the gym AGAIN.
was feeling quite good,
until when i was changing up after it,
i realised that i left my pants in the gym toilet.
and lo and behold,
some fucker stole my wallet and chucked it in some godforsaken corner.
FUCK.
IC, EZ- link, ATM card all gone.
FUCK.
so much trouble to get them back.
i hope that fucker returns the wallet along with the cards,
or else that fucker will just FOAD.

wednesday

2006-03-29T21:14:00.000+08:00

wednesday

today was slack day.
(no lectures/pracs)
although not as slack as it used to be lol.
hardly used my stationery at all.
and i went to the library after sch today.
studied a bit of econs in the library with santa,
for a solid 1hr++
and mitchell fell asleep during his meeting,
so since santa wanted to go gym i went with him.
did a bit of chest and pullups,
and socialised a bit in the gym.
after that slacked around in the canteen for a while,
b4 heading home to stone lol.
like i said,
wednesday IS slack day.

stretching

2006-03-25T22:45:00.000+08:00

stretching

stretching is good.
stretching ur muscles,
stretching ur physical capabilities,
stretching ur brain to its limits,
stretching helps u improve.

therefore we should all stretch whenever we can =)

sunday

2006-03-19T11:10:00.000+08:00

sunday

its sunday,
and im fked.
last day of the hols,
and i haven't really done any schoolwork.
okay correction,
I HAVE NOT DONE ANYTHING.
i guess im still waiting for the mad rush later tonight,
always happens.
but procrastination is settling a little later this time.
'procrastinating on procrastination',
the irony lol.
anyway tmr's chem test,
and i have to memorise the crazy VSEPR table.
gd luck to myself and all those who need it.

wednesday

2006-03-15T18:28:00.000+08:00

wednesday

woke up to jingwen calling me on my hp.
lo i thought it was my alarm,
but then i realised that i didn't set it the night before.
washed up and ate,
b4 realising that jingwen was doing weights at my condo gym.
apparently he has attend th girl's judo camp as well,
after completing the guys' one ytd.
talk about HARDCORE.
anyway during lunch break i went to swim with him.
lol it was too hot to get a tan.
swam/floated around and talk kok,
b4 he had to chiong back for his training.
haha getting a tan already lol,
must be the sun at noon.

anw i was talking to yip about smth,
and this is how it progressed,

imSure~¹² DanielYip™ says:
feel like shit
son goku says:
can pull out halfway right
imSure~¹² DanielYip™ says:
..
son goku says:
>.<
imSure~¹² DanielYip™ says:
dun think so lol
imSure~¹² DanielYip™ says:
i did that before
imSure~¹² DanielYip™ says:
pull out in time la

haha nothing really,
i was asking him about econs trip to us.
and whether we can pull out of it halfway,
and he had to talk about shit lol.
and that concludes the 5th day in a row that i've wasted.
5 down, 4 to go.
b4 its back to sch again.

hols

2006-03-14T20:23:00.000+08:00

hols

went gymming ytd morn with bay and yap.
then had lunch and met up with ben tan.
went to sch to bball,
played with stuart, mingkiat and gabriel goh.
my skin got kinda burnt after that,
came home and chatted till late.
woke up at 10 b4 meeting beta to eat at j8,
followed by gymming again.
new PB set today for 3 rep max,
saw jerik outside macs,
came back home and had a good nap.
woke up and slacked around w/o touching my hols hw.

ouch

2006-03-11T12:41:00.000+08:00

ouch

thx to 02,
i was forced to gym 4 days in a row,
and now im really feeling it.
jingwen killed me with his deadlifts and snatches on thursday.
im still dead lol.
tmd i really need to plan the programme properly.

here come the hols

2006-03-10T22:08:00.000+08:00

here come the hols

term 1 just flew by,
but there really isn't anything to do over the hols.
i feel like just sleeping through it,
and taking a good rest haha.
maybe catch up on my hw too.

learning journey

2006-03-04T22:44:00.000+08:00

learning journey

lol lj at maxwell.
reached there at 6,
ate gosu chicken rice,
talked a bit of kok,
watched some people lan,
and talked kok with mitchell again on the way home.
yeah i love my saturdays.

baika

2006-03-03T22:00:00.000+08:00

baika

leg pain,
but i guess i shouldn't whine.

untitled

2006-03-01T17:35:00.000+08:00

untitled

i've been listening to a lot of LP recently.
and life sucks without my mp3 player.
some ass stole it at the start of the year.
haven't really been doing my work.
hopefully i'll be able to move up a gear next term.
sigh,
im always the procrastinator.

somewhere i belong

2006-02-26T12:47:00.000+08:00

Somewhere I belong - Linkin Park

When this began
I had nothing to say
And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I'd let it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
When all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
Nothing to lose
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own and the fault is my own

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I felt so long
Erase all the pain till its gone
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like Im close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didnt fall right down on my face
I was confused
Looking everwhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I
What do I have but negativity
Cause I cant justify the way everyone is looking at me
Nothing to lose
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own and the fault is my own

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I felt so long
Erase all the pain til its gone
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like Im close to something real
I want to find something Ive wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything
till I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself today

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I felt so long
Erase all the pain till it's gone
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like Im close to something real
I want to find something Ive wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong

Somewhere I belong

why

2006-02-26T01:21:00.000+08:00

why

why did things have to end up this way?
i just hope i was wrong.

angst

2006-02-25T11:24:00.000+08:00

angst

i hate to angst,
*sigh* the irony.
its just that i would have expected more from you.
why can't things be like wad they used to be?

shell

2006-02-24T16:01:00.000+08:00

shell

im being sucked into a shell.
i hate to be lost in my own world,
but then again,
maybe its better that way.

stagnation

2006-02-22T19:33:00.000+08:00

stagnation

here i am again.
it seems like no matter how hard i try,
i can't seem to push past this point.
but i guess i'll just have to keep at it.
and witness my transformation soon enough.

Pieces

2006-02-19T15:24:00.000+08:00

Pieces by Sum 41

I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things that I said

If u believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if they would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy that nothing can save me
But it's the only thing that i have

If u believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if they would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

far away

2006-02-18T10:29:00.000+08:00

far away

i've been far away for far too long.
its time to come back,
and be the person i used to be.

it never really was

2006-02-15T19:23:00.000+08:00

it never really was

but so be it.
it doesn't matter anymore.
i guess i've really mellowed.

transition

2006-02-14T19:30:00.000+08:00

transition

i guess its time,
to make the transition now.
quit dreaming,
and keep it real.

i tried so hard

2006-02-13T20:32:00.000+08:00

i tried so hard

but in the end,
it doesn't even matter.

life goes on

2006-02-12T19:40:00.000+08:00

life goes on

quit caring,
and get own with it.

wads the fucking point

2006-02-11T11:10:00.000+08:00

wads the fucking point

wads the point of bringing people down?
wads the point of gossiping about other people?
wads the point of backstabbing your friends?
wads the point of sucking up to others?
wads the point of bullying the weak?
wads the point of being a hypocritical bastard?
wads the point of trying to be someone ur not?
wads the point of blindly following wad others do?
wads the point of ur fucking existence then?

does it make u feel superior when u put someone down,
or when ur bullying someone else?
does it make u feel good when u gossip about someone,
or backstab ur friends?
does it make u a better friend by being hypocritical and fake,
or when u try to suck up to others?
does it make u any cooler or popular by doing wad others do,
and buy wad they use or wear?

wads the fucking point of trying so hard,
when people are going to think lesser of u?
you can't please everyone,
no matter how hard u try.
be yourself,
be cool and unique in ur own way.
there's no need to put another human being down,
just for those few seconds of personal gratification.
no one's perfect,
so who the fuck are u to condemn someone else's existence?
i've had enough of this childish shit.
ask urself,
wads the point of doing all that u've done?

tmd

2006-02-10T21:30:00.000+08:00

tmd

im damn pissed.
life's so unfair.
wtf is wrong with this world.
fuck it.

when u say nothing at all

2006-02-09T17:56:00.000+08:00

when u say nothing at all

sometimes,
words aren't enough.
no matter wad u do won't make things any better.
sometimes,
its best to say nothing at all.
and show u really care.

cool

2006-02-07T18:11:00.000+08:00

cool

since when was this blog ever cool?
i mean u can get this blogskin off the net.
and the side column was already part of it.
no photos here anyway.
so why bother coming here?
and NO im not act cool.
this blog is just for me to talk kok about my life.
no need to take it seriously.
most, if not all of it is just bullshit.
nth important at all,
it was just smth my classmates to amuse ourselves.
u wouldn't know unless ur in my class.
obviously u shouldn't judge me based on the kind of crap i blog.
yeah and btw,
so wad if im in GEP?
it doesn't mean no shit.
i do believe that we should still treat others as human beings,
even though ur not obliged to make friends with them.
oh and just in case ur wondering,
i do not spread fucking rumours about other people.
so wth is going on about me.
anyway i just hope that if u do not know who i am,
just dun think im act cool or anything,
cos its just the blogskin, really.

peace

2006-02-05T17:47:00.000+08:00

peace

if u ain't got nth good to say,
then shut up.
really.
im not gonna talk much further.

wdv

2006-01-30T13:37:00.000+08:00

wdv

i dun care.

enough

2006-01-29T17:53:00.000+08:00

enough

that's as far as it will go.
enough of this childish shit.
it's gone on long enough.
grow up people,
get a life.
if u really wanna screw around,
polytfe and whyalltheangernhate are great places to do that.
please take ur bullshit along with u thank u very much.
goodbye and have a nice day.

CNY

2006-01-29T00:18:00.000+08:00

CNY

yay CNY.
so much goodies,
but sick guy can't eat =/
starving like F at home now.

17

2006-01-28T00:14:00.000+08:00

17

song bo 17 liao.
sheesh stupid lung infection.
*hack * *cough* *bleagh*
nice portrait on that tissue eh.
ok i shall sleep b4 i get owned even more.

CNY celebrations

2006-01-27T15:26:00.000+08:00

CNY celebrations

LOL.
it was such a bloody waste of time,
and i wondered why i dragged myself to sch,
considering that i was half dead from coughing/sneezing.
i go to sch just to get my attendance taken,
WTF man seriously,
go to sch for a celebration that didn't even happen?
i shall go back to blowing my nose.
im thru to my 3rd box of tissue now.
i didn't think it was possible to blow ur nose,
to the extent that ur eardrums popped.
until now ie.

corroding lungs

2006-01-26T10:55:00.000+08:00

corroding lungs

great.
i feel as though my lungs have corroded,
into a massive lump of mucus and phlegm.
i didn't go to sch today for obvious reasons.
maybe i should go see a doctor.

lung infection

2006-01-25T21:58:00.000+08:00

lung infection

lol why do i keep falling sick.
with a kick ass fever to boot.
ok i guess i shall sleep early.

god

2006-01-24T20:55:00.000+08:00

god

kobe bryant is beyond godlike.
wtf man 81 points in a NBA game.
7 out of 13 three pointers.
18 out of 20 free throws.
28 out of 46 field goals.
i think im going back to supporting the lakers.
oh wait,
i think i meant bryant's team.
or maybe just bryant.

school

2006-01-23T22:16:00.000+08:00

school

nothing much happened today.
i realised that i suck in chem.
esp in pract,
but so does benny.
and we make some killer combo.
haha weiren ponned today,
and we all know WHY dun we?
anyway today quite sian.
sigh life is boring ain't it.

hokkien song

2006-01-22T09:54:00.000+08:00

hokkien song

rmb the hokkien song lagman played us.
i found it.
i guess i was really bored.
and sarah thought it was in tamil >.<
anyway for keefe's benefit.
here's the lyrics of the song,
with the english translation following it.

Nah sih gua uh ji pa ban, ji pa ban,
Gua uh ji pa ban, jit si lang tio khin san,
Bo khong bo lang jai, kong tio chin pai seh,
Chiak kak hia nih tua hanh. ko mm pat je puey kee,

Pah piah hua chuey ni, bo chia bo chu ko bo ai lin,
Kua lang chua bo ko chuey sing di, wu jii ko wu seng,

Nah si gua wu ji pa ban, wa beh je puey kee,
Wa beh ew seh kai, ha wa ee sai dai yang,
Lit pun chiak su shi (Wa chia li chiak su shi)

Nah si gua wu ji pa ban, wa beh buey chia buey chu,
sang ting ka hai bi, siang lang ka ho kih,
lai hor wa cho bo

Nah sih gua uh ji pa ban, ji pa ban,
Nah sih li wu kiam eng jii, khui chui bien keh khi,

Bo khong bo lang jai, kong tio chin pai seh,
Chiak kak hia nih tua hanh. ko mm pat je puey kee,

Pah piah hua chuey ni, bo chia bo chu ko bo ai lin,
Kua lang chua bo ko chuey sing di, wu jii ko wu seng,

Nah si gua wu ji pa ban, wa beh je puey kee,
Wa beh ew seh kai, ee tah li lim ko pi,
Loh pi chiak speh ge ti (Loh pi chiak speh ge ti)

Nah si gua wu ji pa ban, wa beh buey chia buey chu,
Buey tiam lai siu chor, eng eng bien cho kang,
Chua kow ki san por,

Nah sih gua uh ji pa ban, ji pa ban,
Nah sih li wu kiam eng jii, khui chui bien keh khi,

Nah sih gua uh ji pa ban, ji pa ban,
Chap cheng puay cheng teh ki eng,
bien huan ma boh bun tuey (huan chien pu se wen ti)

Nah sih gua uh ji pa ban, ji pa ban…

Wei, peng yu eh, li siong ji pa ban, chin chuay ah?

****************************************************

If I have got one million, one million,
I got one million, my whole life no worries,
Never say nobody knows, say already very shy,
Eat until so big, never sat on a plane before,

Worked so hard for so many years, no car no house and also no lover,
See people get married and do business, got money and got success,

If I have got one million, I wanna sit on a plane,
I wanna explore the world, Hawaii to sun bath,
Japan eat sushi ( treat you eat sushi )

If I have got one million, I wanna buy car buy house,
eat all the delicacies of the world, who got the good luck,
be my girl

If I have got one million, one million,
If you need to borrow money, just open your mouth and ask and no need shy shy,

Never say nobody knows, say already very shy,
Eat until so big, never sat on a plane before,

Worked so hard for so many years, no car no house and also no lover,
See people get married and do business, got money and got success,

If I have got one million, I wanna sit on a plane,
I wanna explore the world, Italy drink coffee,
Road side eat spaghetti ( road side eat spaghetti )

If I have got one million, I wanna buy car buy house,
Buy shop to collect rent, easy easy no need to work,
Bring dog go for a walk,

If I have got one million, one million,
If you need to borrow money, just open your mouth and ask and no need shy shy,

If I have got one million, one million,
Ten thousand eight thousand take go and use,
No need to pay back also no problem ( pay back money not a problem )

If I have got one million, one million,
Wei friend, you think one million a lot ah?

****************************************************

i guess im really bored.
anyway klarissa if u look closely,
my class S03G was in the bold title yeah?
and the identity of the guy was protected for obvious reasons,
and both of them are different people,
and none of them happen to be me.
hope that clears things up.
anyway i edited parts of the previous entry in blue.
if u want the song u can get it from
http://vendy.multiply.com/music/item/1
have fun people.

back

2006-01-18T19:29:00.000+08:00

back

im back.
sorta at least.
since i didn't come to sch in a sling today,
and didn't need people to help me buy food or anything.
but my shoulder is at <70% of its ROM.
darn,
mitchell told me it will take 3 months to recover fully.
well,
our class is back to 28 again.
sigh i feel so dead,
screw maths tutorials.

GG TIMETABLE

2006-01-16T20:27:00.000+08:00

GG TIMETABLE

now we get a true estimate of our jc life.
insane lectures, tutorials and pracs.
packed till like 4 3 out of 5 days =(
and lunch is so bloody late.
damn im gonna get insane gastric.
and im feeling so pissed,
cos some people are born blind or are just STUPID,
since they still touch/pat my injured shoulder.
anyway,
im still deciding whether to wear the sling,
which gives me killer neck abrasions and backache,
since it appears not to protect me in anyway.
screw the doctor,
im not gonna wear it till wednesday.
and nahbei,
my bio and maths tutorials still waiting to be done.
man,
life sucks.

og outing

2006-01-14T12:55:00.000+08:00

og outing

hmm,
xanthus had an og outing at nat's hse ytd.
thx nat for being a great host =)
and i went with my partially dislocated shoulder.
haha,
thankfully my parents still allowed me to go,
and stay until quite late.
btw the medicine was some killer,
i felt really drowsy the whole time.
and haha,
thx farhanis for being my arms while playing mahjong.
but hey,
i(we) still won 2 rounds.
my sling got vandalised again =/,
i probably should charge them for advertising space =)
jkjk.
i hope i won't have to remain in a sling on monday,
and yay i can type with both hands now =)
i probably should start rehab around nxt wed.
maybe its time to start on the tutorials now.

ps. sry good friend, i wasn't able to keep u company ytd.

pain

2006-01-12T19:06:00.000+08:00

pain

wah the painkillers damn strong.
made me numb for half the day.
and then it wore off,
so it hurt like crap again.
i hope i won't end up lopesided after i recover.
hopefully i will be back in action in 2 weeks?
*prays hard*

shoulder died

2006-01-11T15:49:00.000+08:00

shoulder died

im blogging with one hand now.
and man my shoulder hurts like crap.
even if it was ONLY a partial dislocation.
just took the painkillers and muscle relaxant pills .
but its still killing me.
how to type with just one hand?
so hard.
i'll probably still be in a sling tmrw.
and a big thanks to klarissa,
for sending me to the doc,
and footing the bill for me first.
thanks to my other friends as well of course.
but can't type too much cos it takes too long using one hand.
haha,
too bad i missed on cca feste =/

sorry

2006-01-10T18:37:00.000+08:00

im sorry

i really am.
u will forgive me won't u?

bleagh

2006-01-09T20:26:00.000+08:00

bleagh

tmd felt horrid today,
nearly puked loadsa times.
and i loled about the science lecturers.
lol about the rj guys who decided to gym today.
=/
haha,
lol about the ATTEMPT that i made.
hey i tried ok,
but still -.-"
nvm,
today is LOL day.
and hi good friend =)

sick

2006-01-08T15:58:00.000+08:00

sick

see la,
sick liao.
wad to do?
and yay,
i got a new friend =)
u know who u are.
so happy.

DEAD

2006-01-07T10:43:00.000+08:00

hangover

my head still hurts,
hangover's really killing me.
and no,
i didn't drink.
just kinda disappointed that its over already.
man life sucks.

tired

2006-01-05T22:25:00.000+08:00

dead

im so ****ing dead.
today weilip and i were damn kok,
all my og members must think we're spastic.
then today my ogls realised im not as dao as they think.
they probably realised i was damn kok.
talk so much bs.
anyway,
tmrw's the last day,
so i hope we'll have a good time.

sad

2006-01-04T19:26:00.000+08:00

sad

sad,
mark didn't come today,
and it really showed,
cos everyone just stoned today.
and my coordination sucked,
or maybe my memory,
cos i owned in one of the stations,
but got lubbed in the dance.
keep forgetting the steps.
and btw,
my ogls asked why i didn't go for assembly,
then i told them i was standing at the rj traffic light at 750,
waiting for assembly to end o_O
i took my time and timed it just right,
and went in with the flow.
man im tired,
guess i'll just sleep early tonight.

LOL

2006-01-03T16:55:00.000+08:00

LOL

i set my alarm at 640.
and i woke up to turn it off,
then i fell asleep again.
and woke up at 7.
i left the hse at 725,
and reached sch at 729.
hmm,
i really prefer going to rj,
cos i get to wake up like 10 min later than last yr.

first day quite song,
met mark the dulankia.
damn funny,
he crashed the og and PRETENDED to be some SJI guy.
in the end he malu,
cos he wore ORA shirt instead -.-"
and some people actually believed he was J1,
when he was some bored guy waiting for NS o_O
ok nvm,
RJ FOOD SUCKS!
its so ****ing tasteless.
and so damn bloody ex.
and had to queue for so ****ing long.

anyway,
i was quite stoned today,
but a lot of people liked my sch bag and shoes =)
hmm,
i wonder wad time i should wake up tomorrow.
i think 7 is just right i suppose.
hopefully mark won't humji,
and come again tomorrow.
cos apparently SOME teachers were not too happy with them.
i gotta rest well,
because i am so gonna OWN some people tmrw.
other than that,
im feeling really hungry for some REAL food.

bleah

2006-01-02T14:49:00.000+08:00

bleah

woke up at 8.
i set my alarm at 730,
but for some reason i didn't hear it.
then i chionged my breakfast,
moved my bowels,
washed and changed up.
then zao to bishan gym.
it feels just like a normal sch day in 2005.
i dun hear my alarm,
wake up late,
then end up chionging like an idiot.
oh man,
this doesn't bode well.

perhaps an apt new year reso would be to erm,
actually hear my alarm ring?
i have no idea how i am supposed to do that,
so let's just forget it.
and LOL,
today's gym was bloody flooded.
all the nubs trying to stick to their new year resolutions,
i can imagine,
"go to the gym everyday and get a six pack'
like WTF!?
i see all the noobs trying to act pro and lift heavy,
i bet they will end up injured and forget about gymming 4ever.
good riddance i suppose,
i had to weight so long to use the equip,
and guapoo quite pissed too,
maybe cos i was later than him -.-"
nvm,
looks like i still can't rid myself of morning sickness in 2006,
and i thought it was something only girls or pregnant woman have.

anyway,
my butt still hurts,
talk about a pain in the ass.
well school's in little more than 16 hrs.
and i really should start sleeping early,
i wonder wad time should i wake up tomorrow,
so that i won't end up chionging AGAIN for the whole of 2006.
deja vu happens every school day morning for me.

2006

2006-01-01T15:59:00.000+08:00

2006

hmm,
how nice it is to wake up to a new year,
feeling totally crippled.
my butt and legs got whooped.
sigh,
it just makes u feel human doesn't it.
well,
roughly 39 hours before life at rj starts.
i was quite apprehensive,
but im looking forward to it due to the adverse effects of boredom.

wad a difference a year makes,
i guess im going to be 17 in less than a month, (280189)
so i wonder if i would still be an adolescent?
or maybe a young adult?
aiya dun think so much,
later going to my cousin's hse to slack until god knows when.
so i'll probably won't be back till quite late tonight.
oh man,
i really need to sleep.
im just ****ing tired.
not a great way to kick off 2006,
but look on the bright side.
it probably can't get any worse,
so it will probably get better (i hope).

new year's eve

2005-12-31T17:38:00.000+08:00

pathetic

i mean like,
its new year's eve.
and there's nothing to do.
went gym this morning with the club.
my back and butt got owned.
can't sleep properly.
and i wish my morning sickness would go away.
cos i always feel like puking after breakfast.
almost as if im bulimic.
no wonder my weight can't climb higher than 59.

u know i was so bored,
that i went to do abs exercises.
cos no nice shows on tv anyway.
but my abs still don't fit together nicely.
the last 2 always give me loads of trouble.
guess i should start doing my cardio,
but im just lazy,
so i guess i'll have to rely on my metabolism then,
since i've always been skinny.

anyway,
here's wad i want for the new year.
1. ATM CARD
2. FOOD
3. MORE NICE SHIRTS
4. GPA at least 3.2
5. GET A PROPER SIX PACK (and not some 4 pack)
6. STICK TO MY GYM ROUTINE
hmm,
that's probably it.
enjoy the new year guys.
and dun party too hard =)

delinquent

2005-12-30T20:24:00.000+08:00

STOP

man im like some delinquet.
or some street urchin roaming around with no place to go.
and nothing to do.
i think im gonna be shocked when sch starts.
im just hoping i remember to go to sch o_O
im really worried that i end up going to ri instead -.-"
ok nvm.
i really have to stop the rot.
anyone have plans for new year's eve?
i feel the need to go out.
its driving me mad.
like some kinda addiction.
or maybe its cos i just dun wanna stay home and stone.
sheesh,
wad gibberish.
and i think i really need to sleep.

noise pollution

2005-12-30T16:56:00.000+08:00

noise pollution

stupid ri.
bloody construction work takes so freaking long.
and its ****ing noisy.
i can't even take a nap in the day.
and the weather at bishan sucks.
it rains at all the stupid and unpredictable moments.
tmd,
i dun see how 2006 will be any better,
but it probably won't get any worse =)
(crosses fingers)
ok sry for putting u through this rant of mine.
i feel better already.
anyone want to go out tmrw on new year's eve?

slack

2005-12-29T23:09:00.000+08:00

sian

today was really boring.
woke up for breakfast at 830.
ate at 9 after washing up.
went out for my first ever facial,
cos couldn't get appointment at nsc (national skin centre)
and yes,
i fell asleep.
so i have no idea wad happened.
except that it was really cold.

and my chest hurts like crap.
must have been the workout ytd.
hopefully it aches cos i did it properly,
and not cos i injured it.
well,
wad should i do tmrw?
maybe i'll go trim my hair.
my hair's too fluffy -.-"

D DAY

2005-12-28T21:17:00.000+08:00

D DAY is approaching

i hate to be cliched,
but time really flies doesn't it?
its the 28th already.
went to the gym again this morning.
with guapoo, yap and bay (gatecrasher).
while beta dotaed till 4am and couldn't wake up.
later caught narnia with guapoo, woohan and eechong.
i thot it was ok.
but it was quite predictable (for me at least).

later guapoo decided to bank in his paycheque,
and very nearly got his atm card,
but decided not to after much deliberation.
later bought some groceries at ntuc b4 coming home.
i was totally shagged out,
fell asleep (or maybe drifted in and out of consciousness)
woke up 2 hrs later.
now im really feeling the aches.
well i hope i can keep up this routine.
at least twice a week.
so that i can fit my clothes better =)
quite sian actually,
but i guess i need the rest,
cos i can't afford to be so dead when sch starts.
so rest well guys,
and dun party too hard little kiddies.

lethargy

2005-12-27T10:53:00.000+08:00

sleep

i think i need to sleep.
i've been sleeping at midnight and waking up at 7,
for the past week or so.
i think i shud stop that and start getting more sleep.
its a bad habit i suppose.
sacrificing sleep for maple,
and neglecting many things like training, food and sleep.
well now that im done with maple,
i probably can get my own life back.
ok enough nonsense.

christmas flew by quickly,
and we're just a week away from a new school year.
november crawled while december flew by.
such is the relativity of time (screw einstein).
anyway,
hopefully i dun screw myself up nxt year.
because my new year resolutions were barely satisfied this yr.
wtf am i typing.
can't even think straight.
forget it i'll just take a snooze.

merry christmas

2005-12-25T11:06:00.000+08:00

merry christmas

merry christmas everyone.
i went to guan koon's church ytd (city harvest).
i enjoyed the performance they had,
(with the parody of ozone's dragostea din tei)
and got to know more about christmas.
(p.s. its not just about santa and presents)
everyone was really friendly,
so yes it was fun.
but it was held at expo,
and its really far,
and looks like its going to be its permanent residence.
(yes its that big)

and went gym yesterday morning too,
but my appetite hasn't come back.
looks like im gonna have trouble breaking 60kg.
and as usual,
my whole body ached today.
thanks again to those people who wished me christmas at midnight.
sorry i wasn't able to reply,
i was dead tired.
well looks like im off to my granduncle's house again.
enjoy your christmas everyone =)

deja vu

2005-12-22T16:35:00.000+08:00

deja vu

woke up today feeling like shit.
just like every day after a workout.
or maybe its just that im not in shape.
or it could have been all the shopping yesterday.
and i just realised something about my blog.
it actualy looks ok on firefox.
so good riddance to IE and their chinese blogger.

anyway,
haven't been doing much lately,
just the usual maple and stuff.
but im feeling sian.
dun feel the need to maple that much anymore.
perhaps i shall start mixing with the right crowd.
and stop playing kiddy com games.
go out and meet some people.
yeah,
if only it was that easy.
for that i would need a budget.
and i have none left.
unless,
my parents suddenly decide to up my pocket money.
that is as likely as me becoming a mugger overnight.
but u never know.

shopping

2005-12-21T21:57:00.000+08:00

long day

i woke up quite early today at 730.
was meeting beta at bishan gym at 830.
had an ok workout,
though i think i sprained my back.
later on i puked after breakfast.
and stupid poey pangseh me.
sadly mitchell had family outing too.
so we went down to orchard,
and i bought a shirt from topshop.
after that stoned around taka at kino.
later on went to meet his friends.
4 of them in fact,
4 obnoxious girls who are going to be my schoolmates in rj,
in about 2 weeks time.
and i must say,
im really worried about our next 2 years.

anyway,
after lunch at paragon,
and a second one at taka,
we went off again to shop.
or should i say watch me shop.
cos the rest just did their window shopping.
in all i bought a wallet,
a pair of shoes,
a new bag,
and a shirt.
and that added up to quite a bit.
later on,
betawesh pangseh me to play pool with his "other friends"

so i was stuck with them until like 630.
they went round the whole of orchard,
and tried on clothes in topshop again for an hr or so.
and i just followed,
well they are more or les ok.
at least they valued my opinion enough to ask for it.
and kept asking about other people from ri.
anyway,
they also kept taking pictures with my purchases.
and i thought i was bored,
now that word has taken on a new meaning for me,
since someone can roam around orchard with only $2
and end up purchasing nothing.
well,
i guess at least i've made some friends.
so i dun go into jc like some sad lonely nub.

muscle aches

2005-12-19T19:17:00.000+08:00

the day after

ouch,
my muscles hurt thanks to ytd's gym.
esp my upper back,
as it feels sprained.
well i guess i have to sleep well tonight,
and eat more good food.
i weighed myself today,
and my weight fell to 58 =(
that's the result of 5 days of diarrhea.
2kg gone,
no wonder i feel so weak.
anyway i should be getting that back quickly,
and hopefully not the fats i lost.

b4 i forget,
i need a new bag and shoes (9 1/2) *hinthint*
and would anyone like to watch a movie with me,
cos i got one refund ticket that's expiring soon.

healthy

2005-12-17T20:19:00.000+08:00

back to reality

i think i've recovered from my diarrhea.
and yes,
i probably should have gone back to working out today.
but i suffered from insomia,
it was really hot and stuffy last night.
woke up a couple of times before falling asleep.
anyway i returned to swimming today,
and thank god for the thunderstorm,
or else i wouldn't have survived the whole damn thing.
maybe i'll go gyming tmrw after my math tuition.
there's no looking back now,
really gotta work it,
and get into even better shape than i was before.
it starts now.